Hello guys, ye meri ek sacchi zindagi ki dastaan hai, jo main aapko batane jaa raha hu. Mera naam Rahul hai. Main apna asli naam batana nahi chqahta. Ye mera badla hua naam hai. Ye baat tab ki hai, jab mujhe pata chala ki main ladki se zyada ladkon ki taraf attract ho raha tha.
Waise main bata du ki main Gujarat ka rehne wala hu, aur Ahmedabad se hu. Main apne jeevan ki ek sacchi kahani likhne jaa raha hu.
Ye baat 4 saal purani hai. Main tab ek-dum normal sa insan tha. Mere bahut saare friends the. Unme se ek ladke ka name Romil tha (badla hua name ). Romil mujhe apne saare friends mein se bahut acha lagta tha, kyunki wo meri care karta tha. Wo bahut decent ladka tha.
Tab mujhe pata chala ki main Romil ke taraf attract ho raha hu. Mujhe tab ye pata nahi tha ki bisexual jaisi bhi kuch cheez hoti hai. Romil ki taraf ka ye attraction mujhe Romil ke aur bhi kareeb le jaa raha tha.
Hame pata hi nahi chala ki hum kab friends se best friend ban gaye. Ek baar ki baat hai. Main ghar pe akela tha. Tab maine Romil ko apne ghar pe bula liya. Socha koi movie dekhenge. Romil aa gaya mere ghar pe. Tab dopahar ke lagbhag 1 baje the. Hamne pehle popcorn banaye, fir hamne mere laptop pe movie lagayi.
Movie ka name bhi mujhe yaad hai “300 – Rise of an empire”. Hum wo movie dekh rahe the. Wo movie dekhte-dekhte beech mein ek hot scene aaya. Hame pata hi nahi chala kab hamne ek-doosre ke hath pakad liye. Thodi der baad hum ek-doosre ke hath masalne lage. Wo meri taraf muda aur halki si smile ki, aur firse movie dekhne laga.
Usne mujhe bola: Mujhe masturbate karna hai. Main pant utaar sakta hu?
Maine pehle naa bola, fir main bhi maan gaya. Hum dono ne ek-doosre ki pant utaar kar firse wo hot scene chaalu kiya. Fir hum dono ne masturbate kiya, aur firse pant pehan li. Maine us baar first time kisi ladke ke sath hilaya tha. Us time meri khushi saatve asman ko choo rahi thi.
Fir ye silsila chaalu raha. Jab mere ghar pe koi nahi hota, tab main usko bulata. Jab uske ghar koi nahi hota, tab wo mujhe bulata. Ye silsila 1 saal tak chala. Fir lockdown aa gaya. Lockdown ke chalte mujhe Ahmedabad chhodh kar mere gaon jana pada. So uske baad se Romil se milna to kaafi kam ho chuka tha.
Lockdown ke chalte mujhe ye sab LGBT ke baare mein pata chala. Mujhe ye pata laga ki sirf duniya mein main aisa akela nahi hu, mere Jaise kaafi log hai. Unme se kaafi log extrovert aur kaafi log introvert hote hai. Waise main ek extrovert hu by the way.
Lockdown ke dauran main gay love stories dekhta tha. Uske through mujhe Blued naam ki ek dating app ke baare mein pata chala. Maine thoda research kiya aur mujhe ye app acha laga. Fir maine us application mein login kiya, aur apna ek ID banaya.
Shuru-shuru mein mujhe us application ko use karne ka koi idea nahi tha. Isliye maine pehle thodi application explore ki. Us time blued pe live access available hota tha, and general chat bhi hoti thi, jo ki group mein jaake aap log chat kar sakte ho. New version mein ye feature hata diya Gaya hai.
Maine fir blued chaalu kiya to mujhe mere gaon mein 3 log mile bas, Jo mujhe 500 feet ke radius mein mil rahe te. Maine un sab ko message kiya, but usme se ek ka reply aaya. Usne apna name Ravi bataya, aur uski age shayad tab 20 hogi.
Fir maine use milne ko bola. Wo banda dikhta sahi tha. Wo meri blued ki sabse pehli stranger se mulakaat thi, jo maine ki thi. Hum bas casual mile the.
Usne bola ki wo bas ab 3 saal ka mehman tha. Fir usne meri khoobsurti ki kaafi tareef ki. Usne ye bhi bola ki zyada der wo mujhe nahi dekh payega.
Usne aisa kyun bola, I don’t know. But maine 2024 mein uske baare mein thoda pata kiya, aur main shocked reh gaya. Wo baat kya thi, wo aage ke part mein bolunga. Jab meri ye ajeeb si zindagi ki dastaan 2024 ki manzil ko chuegi.
Fir hamara milne ka silsila chaalu raha. Waise Ravi tha to bahut caring and emotional insan. Par andar hi andar uski wo do baatein mujhe khaaye jaa Rahi thi. Maine usse wo jaanne ki lakho koshish ki, par saari nakaam.
Lockdown ache se kat raha tha. Mere dimaag mein ek toofani idea aaya ki kyun na fake gps se Ahmedabad mein mere area ko explore kiya jaye. Maine fir apne mobile pe fake gps ki application ko install kiya. Fir apne area mein set karke chaalu kiya GPS. Maine blued ko refresh maara to mera gps work kar raha tha.
Maine explore karna shuru kiya, bahut saare logon ke message aaye. Unme se kayi log casual waale the, aur kayi log date waale the. Maine sabse baat ki un doston mein se abhi mera koi dost nahi raha. Ek tha dost, but now we lost each others contact.
Mere area mein kayi log the, jo sirf mere residence se 300 feet ke radius mein the. Aise hi maine aage explore kiya. Fir mujhe pata chala ki ek Gay community ka telegram group hai. To maine fir usko join kiya. Waha to kaafi saare log the (abhi wo group actually kuch technical issues ke kaaran band ho chuka hai). Tab meri baat kaafi saare logon se hui, jo is line ke the.
Usme se ek aadmi mere dil ke bahut kareeb tha. Uska name to mujhe abhi bhi maloom hai Ravi Vanzara. Unse meri kaafi saari baatein hoti thi. Wo bhi Ahmedabad se thodi door ke the. Wo kaafi free minded the, jo ki khul ke sab baatein karte the. Ek baar unhone bola ki unki shaadi chhoti umar mein hi tai ho chuki thi.
Baaki hamari roz baatein hoti rehti thi us group mein, aur kaafi log the jinse meri baatein hoti thi. But ye person thoda special tha, so abhi bhi unka name yaad rakha hai maine.
Aage meri baat ek upsc ki preparation kar rahe insan se hui. Uska name bhi mujhe yaad hai. Uska name Shivam tha. He is too decent guy, such a good person. Usse kaafi saari baatein hoti thi us waqt, par ab to hamara contact nahi raha.
Mujhe lagta hai uski shaadi ho jani chahiye and I think he is class 2 aur 1 officer right now. Because wo bahut intelligent tha.
Aage meri zindagi mein kya hua, main aapko aage ke part mein bataunga, shukriya.
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