Sirf aur sirf maa banne ke liye

Mera naam Suman hai, aur main 29 saal ki jawan khoobsurat aurat hun. Main B.tech kari hui hai, aur main Kanpur ki rehne wali hun.

Maine apni pehli job Delhi me kari, aur main whain Delhi me hostel me reh kar apni job ke maje le rhi thi. Tabhi meri life me Ravi naam ka ek ladka aya.

Main aur wo ek hi company me kaam karte the, aur pehli baar humari koi mulakat nhi hui thi. Darsal hum dono apne kaam ke silsile me pas me mile, mujhe usse uski help mangani padi thi.

Usne bhi meri help kari, aur fir hum dono kisi na kisi bahane se jor milne lag gye. Wo mjhe bahot acha lagta tha, agar ek din main use na dekhun toh mera man pagal hone lagta tha.

Akhirkar humne shadi ka fasila le liya, pehle toh humare ghar wale naraj hue par wo baad me maan bhi gye. Humari shadi ho gyi, aur main hostel chhod kar apne pati Ravi ke ghar chali gyi.

Mere pati Ravi ko kaam ke silsile me kafi bar ghar se bahar jana padhta tha. Meri shadi ko pach saal ho gye the, par humara abhi tak koi bacha nhi ho pa rha tha.

Mere saas sasur aur pati dev sabhi betabi se apni agli pidhhi ka intezar kar rhe the. Aaye din meri saas sasur mujhe boli thi, ki ” Bahu hume humare pote ka muh kab dikhaogi.”

Ye sun kar main mayus ho jati thi, aur ab main dhuki rehne lag gyi thi. Mujhe ab apni hi is shadi ke fasile par dukh hone lag gya tha.

Maine unki iccha ka adar na karte hue khud ko doctor ko dikhana thik samjha. Fir main ek din akeli bina kisi ko btaye ek doctor ko dikhane chali gyi.

Doctor ne kuch test likhe aur char din bad fir se mujhe aane ko keh diya. Main fir se 4 din baad bina kisi ko btaye kisi kaam ka bahana laga kar ghar se nikal kar doctor ke pass chali gyi.

Whan doctor ne mera ache se checkup karke mujhe kha, ki meri sari reports ek dam thik hai. Unke hisab se mere ander kisi bhi tarah ki koi kami nhi hai.

Main – Agar aisa toh main maa kyo nhi ban pa rhi hun?

Doctor – Mujhe aapke pati ke bhi test karne honge.

Un dono mere pati ghar se bahar the, aur wo kuch dino baad hi wapis aane wala the. Unke ghar aane par maine unse is bare me baat kari, aur wo bhi test karwane ko maan gye.

Main agle din unhe bhi apne sath doctor par le gyi, fir doctor ne unke test kiye aur unhe bhi char din baad aane ko keh diya.

Par mere pati sirf 3 din hi ghar gye, aur unhe fir se kahin jana tha. Par jate hue unhone mujhe report lane ko keh diya tha. Fir 4 din baad main apne pati ki report lene doctor ke pass chali gyi.

Jab maine ye suna ki mere pati baap nhi ban skate hai, toh ye sunte hi mere pairo ki niche ki jamin nikal gyi. Mujhe itni bechani puri life me kabhi nhi hui thi.

Na jane mere dimag me us time kya kya chal rha tha, maine apna aur unka bahot sara ilaj karwaya. Par main fir bhi maa nhi ban saki.

Fir mujhe mere mayake me ek shadi ke liye Kanpur jana pada. Whan mujhe apne bachpan ki sehali mili, aur maine apna sara dukh use bta diya.

Wo – Yaar tum pareshan kyo ho rhi ho, tum ek attachi rkh lo naa.

Main uski baat nhi samjhi toh wo boli – Jese Mahabharat me Shantunu ki death ke baad unki badi rani Ambika ne apni saas Satayewati ke ekhne par Maharishi Ved Vasay se sambhadh bana kar Dhurashay ko aur chhoti Rani ne Pandhuo ko aur nokarani ne Vidhur ko janam diya tha.

Wese hi tum bhi apne kisi pass ke rishtedar se physical ho jao, aur usse apna bacha paida karwa lo.

Pehle toh mujhe ye bahot jyada kharab laga, par baad me sochne ke baad mujhe uski salah ek dam thik lagi.

Mujhe pata tha ki ye samaj is kaam ke liye humesha se hi aurat ko galat samjhta hai. Main apne pati se kafi jyada pyar karti thi, kyoki wo bahot hi ache nature ke insan the. Wo mujhe kisi bhi baat aur kaam ke liye nhi rokte the.

Ye hi sab sochte sochte aur usi jaldbazi me maine ek aisa kadam utha liya.

Santaan sukh ki chahat aur apne pati ko doshi na batane ki koshish me maine ek aisa tarika socha. Jis par main khud ki halaat ke aage majbur ho gyi thi.

Maine apne nandoyi Pankaj jo Kanpur me hi rehte the, aur wo kafi ache the aur meri shadi wale din wo sabse ache aur mohak lag rhe the.

Shadi ke bad kahi ek bar unka humare ghar bhi aana jana hua tha, par wo kabhi bhi mere pati ke piche nhi aaye the. Mujhe unki niyat me kabhi khoot najar nhi aaya tha.

Wese ek aurat ke nate mera dil unke bare me kafi baar sochta hai, par maine kabhi bhi apni harstao ko pura karne ki koshish nhi kari.

Fir na jane maine kya sochte hue unhe phone milaya aur main boli – Ravi kuch dino ke liye tour par gye hue hai, aur main ek shadi ke liye Kanpur me aayi hui hun. Aaj achanak se meri tabyit kafi kharab ho gyi hai, aap kya subah mere yahan Gowindpuri aa sakte ho?

Wo maan gye aur subah 10 baje Gowindpuri aa kar unhone mujhe call kiya. Maine unhe shadi wali jagah ka address diya, aur wo mere pass 5 minute me aa gye.

Fir wo mujhe le kar apne ghar chale aaye, ghar pahuch kar maine dekha ki meri nanad pese se ek teacher hai. Ab wo apne sch** me ja chuki thi. Ab pure har me main aur meri nadodi akele hi the.

Ghar pahuch kar unhone mujhe doctor ke pass jane ke liye kha, toh main bahana bana kar boli.

Main – Wo darsal maine raat ko hi doctor ko dikha liya tha, abhi meri tabyit ek dam thik hai.

Pankaj – Thik hai shaam ko fir se doctor ke pass chalegen.

Unka nature kafi sharmila tha, toh unhone meri baat maan li. Fir main unke liye chaye banane ke liye uthi, toh wo bole – Are tum leat jao aur aram karo, main chaye bana kar lata hun.

Jab wo chaye le kar aaye, toh maine kampate hue hatho se apne uper chai gira li aur fir main bathroom me jane lagi.

Bathroom me jar kar maine apne puri saree ko utar diya, aur main sirf bra aur panty me aa gyi. Ab main aise hi apni saree par sabun lagane lag gyi.

Tabhi mere dimag ek idea aaya, main tabhi jor se chilayi aur behoshi ka natak karke main niche gir gyi. Tabhi Pankaj bhagate hue mere pass aaya, aur wo mujhe is halat me dekh kar ek baar sharamya.

Par usne dekha ki meri halat shayad kharab hai, toh wo mujhe apni godh me utha kar bedroom me le gya. Fir usne mujhe bed par leta diya.

Fir wo mere gallo par dheere dheere thapad marte hue mujhe bulane lag gye, taki main hosh me aa jaun.

Maine bhi thoda sa hosh me aane ki acting karte hue use kha – Ab main thik hun, mujhe thoda aram ki jarurt hai. Mujhe abhi doctor ki jarurt nhi hai.

Fir main sone ka natak karne lag gyi.

Dosto ab maine kese Pankaj ko apne jaal me fasay aur kese main use chud kar uske bache ki maa ban gyi. Ye sab main aapko apni isi kahani ke next part me batunga.